Feeling the Spirit

It is usually so unlike me to ever think that I could possibly feel something like the "spirit" that I always hear Troy's family or anyone mention, but today for some reason I feel as though I really felt something. I took my second missionary lesson today and all I can really say is that I am loving the religion more and more every time I get to talk with someone about it. I feel as though that is the spirit talking to me and letting me know that this is the right path for me.
Today I learned about the plan of salvation and I was just in raptures with the beliefs that the LDS church believes because those have always been my opinions about God and Jesus as well. I have been going through a bit of a tough time with my friend because of our difference in beliefs, there were some things said that were very hurtful (on her part) and it is really hard for me to forgive her for what she has said, but today with the lesson that I took, it only confirmed my beliefs. I just feel as though this is the path for me, I am feeling closer and closer to it everyday, not just when I take missionary lessons. I think that the church is where I belong and I think that it is where God has planned for me to go, I can only hope because he has brought all of these Mormons into my life for a reason and I think it is because it is to show me the true way.
I am still a long way from knowing for sure what my path is and I don't want to commit to anything quite yet but I feel as though something will eventually happen. there is a reason for everything and I think that this is my reason. I know that tough times may lie ahead for my family and I, but if this is truly in my heart of hearts then I am going  to pursue it because I cannot look past my own happiness to try and keep others happy.
I wish so badly that Troy could be here with me, but I know that he is where he belongs. He needs to bring people to the church and I also think that as much as I want him here on this journey with me, I am also grateful that he is gone because it gives me time to decide for myself and make decisions based on my feelings and not be imposed with his beliefs. I think that in the end he will grow to appreciate the fact that I am doing this all on my own and that I am strong and willing to be happy. I truly hope too that one day he will realize what a blessing he has been in my life for being a stepping stone for leading me to the truth. That is also how I feel about my friend Jason, he was really the starter of all of this, my friendship with some of my closest friends, my relationship with Troy and even leading me to the church. I owe him more than he will ever know or accept. I just hope that he will be blessed with the most wonderful life because he has been such a blessing in mine. I could not ask for a better friend and brother figure in my life.
Thank you Jason, Troy and his family and all the people in my life that just support me and want me to be happy and be who I am.

My crazy boyfriend Troy (the one underneath Jason and I) These people are just so amazing, I am the luckiest girl in the world to have them in my life!

<3 Justiene