When things end...

Well I know I may sound a bit strange but so many things are on the brink of changing. I graduated, I am leaving the Temecula Office Depot July 26th I am going off to college, I am moving to Orange County. All of these things are major points in my life.

But for some very odd reason the thing that is striking me the most at the moment is finishing the last episode of Big Love HBO's series. That's right, I watched all 5 seasons! It has taken up most of my summer so far and I have grown to love all of the characters even though they are not real. So to finally see it end makes me sad because I will not be able to follow their lives anymore. It's almost like when you are friends with someone but then that friendship ends and you no longer know what is going on in their life that you were once so closely apart of. 

I also finished reading the book Escape by Carolin Jessop. That book brought another end with so many questions. I just want to know where they are now. 

So I have come to realize that I much prefer fantasy worlds to the actual literal world. It has helped me escape from the stresses of everyday life and all of the changes that are currently taking place in my life. But when those things ended it brought me right back to reality, I couldn't hide behind these "fake" things any longer, I have to face what lies ahead for me. I am not saying that I am not excited, its one step closer to Troy coming home but I feel unprepared, and that could be from my lack of being proactive with finding an apartment or working on my health but I also feel unprepared because I feel as though I am going this alone, and I know that it should be like this but I can't help but panic a little. 

So as I am sitting here thinking about where my life is heading and feeling like I want to pull my hair out, I need to remember that He has a plan for me, He knows exactly what path my life is gong to go down, all of my life Heavenly Father has illuminated the steps for me to take, and although those steps may not be lit up for me just yet, they will be when He is ready to illuminate them.